the reflection in the mirror

another poem I wrote a while ago XD

I look at the mirror and all I see
the fake smile I always keep
I look at the mirror and all I see
someone Im pretending to be
this mask became a part of me
and somehow I believed that this is how I should be
buried my thoughts , buried my dreams
pleased everyone and forgot about me
the reflection on the mirror cant be the reflection of me
when she's looking back at me
I could tell her heart is broken easily
she doesnt know who to run to
she doesnt know where to hide
she doesnt know who to talk to
she always wish to die
but I see hope in her eyes
I know she can survives
he'll one day find the path
that takes her to a future so bright
she'll one day see the sun light
healing her wounded sky

I've learned my lesson

a poem I wrote a while ago...

on the sand I sat and staredat what we called our favorite place
nothing is special in it as you are not there
I try my best to stop the waves
from wipping away what we've made
but I just fail
and everything starts to fade
you promised that we wont break
and that forever we'll stay
but as days passed you changed
and you forgot how to care
you left me alone with all the pain
who thought that this is how its gonna end
who thought that you will simply break
all the promises that you've made
but I dont regret it and Im not ashamed
coz my lesson is what Ive learned
learned that trust is a dangerous game
I aint gonna take that risk again
I aint gonna give away my heart to any human being
Im gonna try to fix my shattered heart and gather my lost dreams..

a conversation between me and fate

me: can we talk
fate: NO!
me: please?
fate: you wont get any good of it
me: try me
fate: as u wish
me:please tell me?
fate: tell you what?
me: whats next? where are u taking me ?
fate: I cant tell , knowing should be a good reason for u to live
me: but it hurts not to know how things will turn after all we do, dont u think?
fate: yea I do but this is how life should go
me: what do u get from doing this?
fate: teach u lessons in life
me: but I dont wanna learn them
fate: its not an option
me: please tell me!
fate: I'll tell u one thing . u have to work hard for what u want , u have to have HOPE .. its the secret to succeed ! alot of things will try to stop u , u'll fall alot , u have to stand up and keep trying and then I might have no option but letting things go the way u want...
me: really?
fate: u have to prove for me that u r strong enough first

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dont u think that fate is the scariest thing in this world

Fur elise - me on the piano

I hope u like it ! its not that clear though ...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=-Zw6Y1MszvE

unfaithful by Rihanna * me on the piano*

http://s155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/?action=view&current=SA500679.flv

Lost?

how often do u find ur

self lost between 2 paths ,, each one of them has its goods and bads .. u just cant choose .. so u leave things to days ... days pass by and nothing changes .. the only thing that happens is that things get more and more complicated and choosing becomes really hard .. at these times , when u cant turn to anyone , not your best friend , not ur parents , u find ur self turning to God .. u find peace , comfert and everything u need ..

his arms are opened wide for all of us .. even people who are sinking in their mistakes ..

Suicide In Our Society

I wrote this article in my magazine (snowflake) which I had to do as a school project ..I find it a very sensitive topic to talk about but I just had to !

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It might sound weird that I choose this certain subject to talk about. We all think that only a few people in our society thought or tried to kill them selves. I think that you will change your way in thinking after you read this. For some reason I thought of creating a poll in an online site to know more about how our youth think. All of the people who voted are between 13 and 21 years old. 29 people have voted.

As you see the poll results are really shocking 20.69% have thought of suicide and they tried it too. Those 20.69% are the lucky ones who survived from this tragedy. Not to mention that the number of people who thought of suicide is very close to the number of people who didn’t. Two of the people who confessed made it clear that they cut themselves to release the anger in them and to forget the emotional pain they are going through by living a physical pain that might lead to serious diseases and infections in future. I also gave those youth the space to write the reasons why they thought or tried suicide. Most of them don’t have anyone to listen to them so they keep on hiding their feeling and problems and feel desperate and worthless.I'm against suicide. It's nothing but a shame and an end to every hope in this life and in the other life but if we took a deeper look into our society there is no one to listen to our youth and deal with their problems. Everyone admits that each and every teenager lives all these feelings and faces all these problems but no one is reaching out to them. The society is totally ignoring these issues for some reason. It’s the traditions and the misunderstanding of Islam that causing all these problems. Therefore we can't blame our youth if they thought of suicide because it's our responsibility and our job to help them and reach out to them. And we are failing this mission.

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