Friends Come And Go ... just another excuse to cover our faults

(friends come and go) .. some people believe in that .. but is it true? or is it just an excuse to cover your mistakes? to me .. whoever believes in that doesn't really know what (friends) are .. to him maybe its just getting to know people to use them as an excuse , smudge their faces with your mistakes , and blame them for every wrong step you took !..
break their heart , hurt them with your words , disrespect and humiliate them .. then come back with a laym apology assuming that its just going to erase it all and get things back to normal
and if it really went too far.. and you felt ashamed from your self, blame them for absolutely everything and then walk away telling them that its over .. why? coz friends come and go ... not opening your eyes to see that you , your self the only who's " coming and going " and bouncing between friends , know a friend , call him best friend , use him , then blame him and go find a nother one or maybe the friend him self will have enough of all that shit and will choose to walk away from this stupidity and all these situations u keep putting him in ..and do the same over and over again with almost everyone you know ...
its never your mistake .. its always others mistakes !

some more stalkers... SCARY STALKER

this happened to me once while I was with my sister in a mall alone.. a stalker with his gang of friends were watching us from a distance when he finally thought of getting closer .. he came close so close that we gave him the look of ( WHAT?)! he was like excuse me are u (,,,) my sister told him its not her so he was like aKEED? my sister was like yes .. after that he wouldnt leave so we finally called dad who was there then and asked him to come , the stalked us EVEn while dad was there and it was so weird coz they were saperating and then when one of them find us he calles his firends and they all come ... the scariest thing is when dad left us and went out of the mall they thought we were with him so they stalked him XD we were standing behind them and so them pointed at dad then they started RUNNING I mean running like running ! me and my sister were like WTF :S !!!!!!!!!
when it was clear to them that we werent with dad we were inside a shop but we were able to see it all ! they got really pissed and turned and started rushing back again and looking around ,, at somepoint I swear I thought they were somekind of police men in formal outfits hunting us for somereason :S ! anyways they kept stalkin us for a really long long time till we left the mall basicly and that was like two hours later ...

stalkers 3 ( the hypnotized stalker)

honestly .. thats the most annoying one ! me hate that kind !
and its usually MEN not boys , Ie.. kinda old ,, except for the onces in my chemistry class ..
then stare , in a serious way , frEAKs u out !
its more like ( ma shayfeen 5er) not hypnotized XD in both ways .. I HATE ThEM
I always feel like throwing something on their heads to wake them up...
once i guy from this type ended up hitting him self in a small column which was really OUCH coz it was in his awy sensitive spot ( XD ) ... he deserved it anyways

stalkers 2 ( the *Im not stalking u* stalker )

this stalker is really the weirdest ever ! coz u just dont know what the hell does he wants of u !!! maybe the look u give scares him but he stalkes and then act as if he's looking somewhere else or doing something else??? okay if u have a point make it???
this happened with me once , it was one of the times I used to leave my bluetooth opened but never accept , I was walking and recived a request , I rejected , heard the tone of ( sending failed ) from the person behind me .. thought that it was just by mitake and kept walking , then the same thing happened over and over again and eventually i turned and he turned his face looking to the other direction ! :S

lesson of that day? keep ur effing bluetooth turned off the whole time XD it makes no sense to leave it opened anyways XD

Stalkers 1 ( the stupid stalker )

okay here I'll start posting some of the weirdiest, funniest , scariest stories of stalkers I had to face during the last few years and remember ...

so I'll start with the type of stalkers I face the most... The STUPID STALKER! yup ! the stupid stalker is that who stalks u while u are with ur own FATHER !!! and he is cleaver enough to let the father notice what he's trying to do .. I always ask my self : what the hell is he trying to get himself to ? REALLY !!!
they usually get a scary stare from dad or even worse..
worse? yea .. worse!!!!!! here is the worse It ever got !:
once I was in a hypermarket in the cashier when this guy came and passed me with the excuse of getting into the hypermarket .. the place u stand in the cashier is already so tight so he made his way through by passing my and touching all my body with his and walked .. I turned and I was so shocked and dad was there so I didnt know what do I really have to do... again as I said ( STUPID STALKER!) its not that dad didnt see what happened ... he PASSED BY HIM THE STUPID XD !!!the next thing he knew is that he was grabbed from his ears ( and Im not kidding u guys ! from his years) and pulled back not to go anywhere and started shouting at him in front of everyone.. then dad took his hand of his ear and grabbed him from the back neck of his clothes and pulled him to the security ,, that wasn't good enough for dad .. he insisted to take him by him self to the administration of the mall XD and there he got his mom XD !!!! and started lecturing the embarrassed kid in front of the embarrassed mama of his !!!
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I told u .. S.T.U.P.I.D S.T.A.L.K.E.R !

KLU KLUX KLAN

bullshit XD
Ive been trying to know more about them since ages I knew nothing but the way they look.. and now as I know...
BULLSHIT XD
i worte about this in general before

again to the same food strugle at SQU

so yea ,, now as ramadhan ended we are back to the food strugle in squ..
the food is reALLY not good there.. I mean in everywhere there ... it makes u feel SICK!!! ( asta'3for allah) but REALLY Ive never ate something there which tasted like real FOOD !!and even if u thought of living with that and eat ,, just try to be five minutes late on lunch time and see what will u see XD !! ... errrm didnt know yet?? want hints? ... you'll see NOTHING AT ALL !! no FOOD !! nooooooo ATP its all gone !!!
and if u were on time u'll see what I call ( OMAT MOHAMMED) the whole nation bunching buying foood and again it makes u change ur mind and leave the place with a bottle of water ..
there is this place called ( NASEER) everyone was talking about ..(nasseer yea nasseer lets order food from nasseeer its the best yum yum nasseer and bla bla bla )
the one good thing about it is that it delivers food to u whereever u are .. I saw its menu which was really big and from the pictures.. u get this idea that its actually a good place to eat.. so I thought of paying the place a visit and see whats this naseer really looks like XD !!! what did I see... a small ( I mean really small 2 by 2 shop and an indian guy full of sweat running to the car to get my order ... iS THIS NASSEEER :S ARE U SERIOUS !!!
again ,, another name off my list... anyways I was so starving that day so I got something from them. have a look : ... wow I loved the idea of including french fries.. i was afraid its going to make me feel full as they really put ALOT of it !!



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I usually wait till I Get home and then eat .. but when I have workshop that finishes at 6 and after all that work.. XD hahaha !! no way XD
the first week I ended up :




yup ,.. macdeez ! we really need one in SQU :S !!

Complication

(copied from os , posted by genius )
I really loved what I read ! its really true somehow
we always look at the dark side and make things more complicated than they already are .. why do we do that while it wont do us any good ? I dont really know !
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Life Sux - Boring - I hate this - Daah - Sad Faces - Screw this life - I wish I die ...........


I dont know if its only the people around me or its a common thing now days.

In one of the stages in my life , I used to use all these words and the common line I had to my self was " Why me ?!" or " I wish if i get only 5 minutes break where all the world stop ONLY 5 Minutes break"


But then I realised these line :

"Life is complicated , why complicated more "

"What are the gains of more complicating life"

"Talking only wont take you any where"

"You got the right to finish your life,but you never got the right to let people whom love you to tear"

"There is always some one out there need your Smile,love,passion,emotions,talents"

"If Life was perfect,then whats use of living ? "

"Some times worse life events can prove for you your value and others value"


It took me a while to realize all these....So when you are going to do so ?

End Of Ramadhan

and here comes the end of ramadhan this one month passed so fast that we didnt even notice .. it didnt even feel like ramdhan this year .. the house was so empty we were hardly 3 girls and our parents while in the other years we are usually ten or so with my granny here and my brother and his wife and kids ... I dont know but I really didnt feel that it was ramdhan , I just lived as anyother day of the year , nothing special this year ... Eid is going to be in 4 days and Im not that excited about it ,,, excited about the holiday I must admit that ! XD!
the one thing that was really diffrent this ramadhan is the number of deaths Ive heard about,, especially car accidents victims I really mean it when I say that the number of victims was really sky high this year.. I hope it was just related to ramadhan and its going to decrease after it ..

RIP ro2ya

RIP Ro2ya ! she was in my school last year
she's in grade 11.. 15 years old
died today coz of a virus that reached her heart..
may your soul rest in peace !
alla e9aber ahlaha !

what we dont have is what we want

isnt it just true that what we dont have is what we want?
it always goes this way ...
Im white , I wanna be tanned
my tanned freinds think Im crazy or something coz I want to be tanned !
I used tanning lotion and all just to be tanned XD
why? coz Im white...
alot of thin people wanna be fat and at the same time fat people do all they can just to be thin...
I remember at somepoint I was dying to start wearing reading glasses XD !!!
just coz I dont really wear them XD!
blondies dye their hair black and girls with black hair dye it blone..
its just going the other way around . we'll always want what we cant get and whats not in us.. we can never be satisfied .. nothing is good enough for us
but it is what we want is whats always good for us ? thats the question ...


I still so wanna be tanned ...
me have a workshop to attend ...
cya :)

you're flying with out wings

it speaks for its self
thats how I feel ..

learning on the streets?

is it right that they let ppl learn how to drive on streets from the first day?:S

I find it really wrong :S to learn how to drive on the main streets and from the first day ..
I was asked to drive on the street from the first day . and Im telling u guys I knew nothing about driving ! my only experince was 5 minutes ON A STREET too but an empty one ...
I dont know how to control the accelerator my speed keeps on increasing I almost hit a truck coz it was driving slowly and I was driving 120 Km/H..
yes
120Km/H .. from my secound day
100Km/H in the first day
Im a total threat and Im kept on the main streets to learn ! :S
I think that Oman should special driving school with roads so that ppl learn there before moving to streets with other ppl
the RTAs ( road traffic Accidents) are increasing 30 people died the last week as RTA victims 30 .. in 7 days ,,
you could say about 4 victims a day?

diffrent shots of masba7a

You wont see me cry

I'm broken-hearted
I can't let you know
And I wont let it show
You wont see me cry


thats a part or rihannas song "cry" .. vedio posted above..
but to me it has a diffrent meaning
sometimes u are so down
so sad
so broken hearted
but u choose to suck it in
sometimes u try to comfort the person infront of u
while you need someone to comfort u
but u choose to hide it in
to make the person infront of u feel better
not let this person know how bad u feel deep inside
faking strengh
faking a smile
faking that u feel alright
start saying things to make the person better
but those things wont make u feel better
u know they should
but they just dont
after all someone has to be strong
someone has to keep smiling
someone has to comfort others
living the same situation that u are living

why us?

squ
girls corridors...!!!
most of them look like this !!
I walked in guys corridors .. saw nothing like that
include that their corridors are air conditioned and closed while ours arent

Whats on the inside is what really matters ..

couldnt resist the deep red colore !





and whats on the inside alway reveals at somepoint ...
and whts on the inside is what really matters

all shots taken by me :)

old is gold

and we always get back to the old ..it always turns to b the best ..

Quraan 2

another Quraan shot a lil bit of diffrence in lightening

Quraan

you have sharpened my heart

picture taken by me :)

Annoying teacher !!! thanx!

in last weeks tutorial our teach got another teacher to help the students coz its hard with one teacher only ..
so this teacher was arabic but he was so RUDE and MEAN especially to me I dont know why ! his tone was so nasty !
I asked him for help and he was like ( read the question ...) I read it , then he was like ( THINK) with that really bad tone .. so I told him I thought of it and I didnt know thats why Im asking u DOCTOR .. he was like u took this in the class u are supposed to know it ,gave me his back and left! I was like what da heck :S !!!
and everytime I call him he used todo the same thing . so finally when he thought of helping me the question has a root and I Didnt notice that it was a negitive intger .. he asked me whats the root ? so I grabbed my calculater and wanted to calculate it when he pulled it off my hand and banged it on the desk and shouted : WHATS THE ROOT!!! .. I was so shocked coz he did that infront of all the students and made everyone look at me so I like ..OH its a negitive intger ! its un defined .. he was like FINE NOW THINK MORE and turned his back and left :S !!
after 30 minutes I asked my teacher for help and refused and help from the other teacher .. my teacher in 5 secounds made the question so clear for me :S!

what kind of teachers is that :S !

boulevard of broken dreams...

yes thats one of greenday songs ..

but thats not my point here ...



its when u work hard for ur dreams and for what u want and let ur hopes high .. u start seeing this dream comming true somehow .. u start believing that u will for sure live that dream ...
and then suddenly it all what u built breaks down ..
and u start seeing all ur hopes fadding
all ur hard work ..
gone with the wind
u stand there alone
dont know what to do
the future u were living for is gone
what are u living for? u just dont know..
once again that old feeling is back
looking to the future as a dark spot
have no idea whats waiting for u
have no idea what are u living for
have no idea what are u working to achieve

and u stand alone
in the boulevard of your broken dreams...
walk alone again
dont know where it goes
But it's home to u and u walk alone

I wanna pull out !

ehh ! yea ! I feel like pulling out ! I know I wont , its a once life chance that I got and I wont waste it ,, but at the same time the fact that Im not doing well is really annoying me .. no matter how much I study Im still the dumb one in the class that have no answers at all .. the one questiong I can answer is ( Have u signed the attendance sheet?) other than that Im just screwing big time in Chemistry and precalculus .. it feels weird a little because Ive always been the mathz nurd who loves maths and so good @ it .. and suddenly everything faded away , its like u put a grade one student in a college maths class.. more like a show to the students to look at me looking like the dumb one .. foe the chemistry Im really okay with being dumb.. though I love the subject but Ive been dumb in it ever since the first semester exam last year .. i mean it when I say I need therapy to get over that exam XD ! Its been almost a year now and its still a shock to me XD LOL
I dont know maybe I just feel so and Im not .. I have precalculus quiz on wednesday and its going to decide if Im doing well or Im right .. Im just a big dumb @$$ over here ! XD ~!!!

I have a workshop now so I gotta run to catch up and finish my (rock) project whats so ever .. :) !

CCE anyone?

what the hell am I doing here? Im at cce with the two reems I know and reemz cousin \
Im at the computer lab , again one of those boring breaks dont know what to do ..
eh what ever Im already having like the worse day ever over here and I have a weird feeling that im failing chemistry this semester XD really I mean it ! I have no idea what are they talking about in the lectures I attend .. on the other hand i woke up really late today and had no time to do anything but to change my clothes and run my way down to the car so that i catch up with my late lecture XD

and as usual late :D (A) !

and oh yea ,.,, boys coridors thats like my home sweet home I always end up walking there dont know how and why but I just do !
maybe im a guy???
what ever .. stupid thoughts I have


GOD TAKE ME HOME! I just wanna have a rest for the love of god this is like the worse day ever !

how do u want me to listen while all I hear u saying is BLA BLA BLA ! XD

LOL so that's exactly what was going through my mind while I was in the history lecture the other day .. the lecture is 2 HOURS LONG! and the doctor is really really boring ! its not that I'm the only one who's bored there.. most of the students were.. and oh don't forget to mention that the doctor him self is bored and he said it him self !!! to be honest .. the lecture started at 2 and it was the first lecture in that subject .. at 3:30 I realized that they started teaching and that they are not just chit chatting about the book XD !! I'm serious I couldn't hear a word and I didn't! my head was heavy and I started having a chest pain from boredom XD ( yup that's very rare but that was more than what I can handle!)..what was funny is that some of the art students were acting really wise while answering and talking as if they were peomists or something ( yup and including poems too) XD for gods sake we are talking about HISTORY here ! what does poems have to do with that !
so he made us leave the lecture half an hour before it ends and OH-MY-GOD! it was the best feeling ever to get out of that misery,


dont know how am I going to study this subject XD !! I must start participating as its included in the mark ! ( sigh!)
we'll see how it works the comming week :D ~!!

Long breaks drive me crazy

yup . long breaks do drive me crazy I must say,, Im so bored of them already and its just the first week of the semester XD !!! but really , I have breaks up to 6 hours everyday between lectures As I usually have one or two lectures aday only .. I really get lost and dont know what to do as I dont have anything to study yet.. so today I had a long break from the morning at 11 am till now and its 3:41 my lecture starts at four and since then I really dont know what to do .. !
I copyed the missing lectures and spent long ours in CCE with Reemz .. it was fun yea but I dont wanna do this everyday , every week till the end of the semester coz its so much of a waste of time ! really!
so today I just called the driving trainer and Im gonna start driving lessons on thuresday if things went fine and was able to get the premission by wednesday ! woho! yup . but Im gonna study Automatic jear instead of Manual coz its faster to learn and I wanna end up this struggle as fast as I could .. so
its 3:45 I have a workshop in 15 minutes .. so I better run :)
I love my blog its just the perfect spot to "waste my time" just kidding .. to pass time..

Second thought about my previous post (2 shots from salalah)

so Ive been thinking about my previous post and what I mentioned about how our hearts are sculptured with pain and sorrow and will always stay the way they are even if the source of pain faded away .. I started having second thoughts about it ...
yes they might be sculptured forever but these carving can be re filled with something like magic that makes u feel so safe and kinda relieve u from that pain ...
its having love and care from a friend or a relative.. from anyone ... its just like magic set to ur heart . fill it with hope and happiness ...

so sculptured it is .. but refilled with the magic of care :) !

thanx to all who filled mine :) !!!

2 shots from salalah

what goes through my mind when i see this...
there is no water anymore
but look at what the force of the water did to the ROCK
its liquid and thats solid
but still
look how it sculptured the rock
this is exactly what happenes to our hearts ..
the sources of pain fades by time
but the scars never goes
our heart are being sculptured everyday by pain and sorrow
and the scars will last forever ..

the key to my heart

whats the key to my heart?
whats the one thing that will make me open my heart to u
open up to u
tell u everything
trust u with the most important thing
my heart?
to me ... I'll tell u its Honesty
i dont care how many mistakes do u do
i dont care how many bad things u have done
as long as u are being honest about it
u win the key to my heart

everyone of us has a diffrent key to his heart
it really differs , so whats urs?

university foot wear ... my new struggle XD

the picture of the heels shows the type heels Im used to wear on daily bases ! I cant live with out them Im used to them and love them XD !!!now in university that turned into a problem coz its impossible to make it through the whole day with them
so i started to trrrrryyy hard to wear flats ..

have alook
converse shoe!


its more comfey to walk in them but i still feel weird ! and ppl stare at them so very much its just not right XD
sooo I tried the ballerina type of flats:


in those ... I looked like ,,, mmm a duck?? so hehe I wore them and had my heels in my books bag ,, before entering the lecture I change them ;p ! LOL

its really messy~!!!~
so I finally turned into something in between ...
comfey heels


not this style but the same type of base
or anyother type of heels which arent pointy ( comes in one part )

so we'll see how long will i survive with this obsession XD !!LOL

the way i start my day ... EVERY SINGLE DAY :D

Lol It Seems that I just have to get used to this ...
everymorning :)
this traffic jam is really annoying ! but at the same time I can finish alot of stuff at that time !
put my make up on , wear my scarf , HAVE MY BREAK FAST , sometimes I just sleeeeeeeeeep XD but after that I have to run when I get to the univesity coz I'll be late on my lecture

Every one leaves at some point ~!~

yup ! I guess this is life ... every one will eventually have to leave u at some point ... and u ur self might have to leave some people at some point and move on with ur life . no matter how much we always say that we will always be together and nothing will separate us , life just play us around and force us to ...
alot of people did walk out of my life at some point , people I really cared for , and they just left simply leaving an empty spot in my heart and a memory of them in my head ...
I too did walk out of the lives of some people I know .. I don't know if it hurted them but I just did ..
I never thought that any of these people who left me or i left are going to leave at some point but they did
this really makes me think of the people I'm around right now ...
will this happen too? will they leave? or am I going to leave them for any reason?
it seems that yes it will happen too.. but I really think of when is that going to happen and why? and who is going to walk out of the others life?
there are some people that I'm really not ready to leave anytime soon.. but there are some other people that I cant wait to see them walking out of my life.. or so I think
because when it comes to the time they leave I really start feeling sad coz they are going ...

Fight for my right Round 5.. Me Vs. the registration and deenship

okay so today was the fifth and last round in this whole "fight for my right with the registration and deenship" .! Im so happy Im done with all that its just a PHEWwW XD ! finally ! sucked all my energy up !
okay I didnt take all the subjects I wanted to take ,,, but atleast I got the workshop .. thas good right? ..I wont be taking english for engineering nor arabic this semester... ended up with 12 cridets instead of the 15 I was planning to take but who cares .
aham shay Im done .. today everything was done easily ! I just had to wait in the que thats why ... THAT DOES HAVE AN EXPLINATION BTW! nothing happenes randomly.. today I instisted to talk to a guy instead of a girl ! the women who work there are just so SLOW and they dont care ! its so simple to them to say ( time table clashes go get signatures) ! I heared that over 10 tims the last few days !
anyhow ! Im done:)
after I finished I Went to get my books and OH MY GOD !!!! that was hell !! really ! the longest que ever ! its not even a que .. u know how girls here define ques. its like bunches and bunches over each other XD !!! I had to stand for like an hour and a half under the heat before I started getting pissed ,, it was IN BUNCHES so it was really messy so (A)(A) I moved forward by my own (A)(A) "fought for my right" whats so ever but really ! if they were quing right I wouldve stayed where I am (A) aint my fault !
okay why was it crouded? hmmm a good question .. it was in the college of science thats why ! when I went to take my book from the college of engineering (college sweet college) there was no one ! I was the only one and finished in no time ... yup ! thats a good thing :) !

anyhow I went to my lecture which was introduction to engineering it was so effing boring I must say ! LOL the doctor was like ( if I talked quickly please stop me and ask me to reduce my speed) ... I SWEAR I wanted to rasie my hands and ask him to speed up coz I couldnt stop yawning with his slow indian accent and boring talk !
now Im in the computer lab blogging and I think I'll just have to leave and grab something to eat coz I promised I will eat XD !LOL my friend wont eat untill I do so I better do XD Im really not in my eating mood Im so down :( ~! will blog about that soon XD LOL

ah my books are so heavy I cant carry them :( ! my bag got torren coz they were so heavy ..*pictures to b posted later*

TC :)

stop judging me for my outlook !

so yea this have been annoying me lately ... being judged for the way I look ...
Ive been dealing with this since a long time .. but I usually got a better treat and got everything done easily for me ..
I cant say that I liked it back then ,, I didn't .. I felt that they are just doing it for my look and that was right .. but at the same time it was such a help sometimes ;p

but not all people will treat me that way ..
some do treat me in a different way coz they judge me with out knowing me which really hurts me really...
some people will think that I'm that kind of a bad -b*tchy girl who is so easy to get just coz I show my hair a lil from the front or coz I wear trousers and stuff like that ...

this guy saw me for like 5 minutes from far away , he didn't even talk to me .. he works with my sister and knows her .. he went to her and told her that I don't look like a sister of hers.. don't look like a member from this family .. why? coz of the way I look and coz of my personality ... excuse me man? u didn't even talk to me ! u saw me from like 5 metres away how can u judge me and what do u know about my personality :S !
it really hurted me to hear that ..

u know , this is the way i look ! but it has nothing to do with reflecting whats in me so if u wanna judge me u better know me first before assuming stuff..

fight for my right . Round 4... Me Vs. registration and deanship @squ

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tomorrow is round 5 :) ! yup ! this seems to be a never ending struggle ...
okay to be honest I ended up with 4 subjects so far
-history
-introduction to engineering
-General chemistry for engineering
-pre-calculus..

couldnt get english for engineering ( which is super important) coz it didnt fit my time table no matter HOW MUCH I TRIED .. I gave up :)
tomorrow I'll give one last shot to apply for workshop one .
I had to walk twice today from the registration and deenship to the college to see the workshop doctor and take his signature to apply my but it wasnt enough for the registration so u know what SCREW U PEOPLE !!!! SCREW U ! ARGH ...lol its so annoying i swear to god !

fight for my right . Round 3 ... Me Vs. registration and deanship @squ

round 3.. not dont yet , not bothered to write about it ,.. is just SSDD ( same shit diffrent day) ...
tomorrow is going to b round 4 ...

fight for my right . Round 2 ... Me Vs. registration and deanship @squ

yup .. so after round one which was last wednesday .. here comes round 2...
round one didnt go so well .. had to run alot ( RUN RUN) and walk alot between engineering and registration and deanship which are way to far like 3 times and I ended up with no registrations at all XD couldnt make it at time...


round 2 started in the registration and deanship first thing in the morning .. eighthundred sharp .. but it was so crouded ! damn ! nooooo XD so anyways I had to que for an hour between the croud .. to finally end up with 2 subjects out of 6 ... step 2 ? back to the college ! god how much I hate that .. anyways I did walk to the college and then to the language centre and thats when those 3 places ( college of engineering , language centre , registration and deanship) started bouncing me around and playing with me as a yo-yo ... yeaaaa when i reached that point I knew its not going to end up with one or 2 walks between those 3 places .. picked up the phone bEGED my sister for a ride ,, she said okay ..
she was like hurry up Im waiting while Im buying her something to drink just coz she gave me a ride ... when I reached to the registration and deanship agaaaaain they asked me to go back to the college .. believe me .. for SO MANY STUPID REASONS okay now I started exploding the secound time i got to the registration and deanship ,, it was so crouded ...
the girls area ! more as a cROUD really,, no ques and HUGE bunches of girls .. Im already short and tinny I cant get in there .. I went to some one I know there and told him that I CANT DO IT IM SORRY !HELP ME PLZ ! so he was so kind to help me :) but I still had to que .. in a smaller que though ... the ppl SMELLED LIKE HELL ! I swear.. I never smelled something that bad before ! mixture of DEEP STINChES !I had to take out my perfume ( which I was so lucky to get with me today ) and spray around on them XD .. I was txting my friend... said that Im gonna faint ! aww my good friend called just to make sure I wont...
on the other hand , guys area wasnt crouded and ppl were standing nicely in ques..
before I go to that guy for help I was like : he either helps me or Im going to the guys section ! I dont GIVE A DAMN
and yea I can do it..
after my sister gave me a ride AGAIN they asked me to go back to the college .. thats when I HAD ENOUGH ! DO U HEAR ME? I HAD ENOUgh OF U gUYS !YUP ! WITH U STUPIDITy HAS NO LIMITS !!! I called dad .. told him I cant take it he must come give me rides coz its getting too much ! and he kindly did !! though he was far he did ... he had to give me LOTS OF RIDES I MUST SAY ! In a matter of 45 mintues only ,... he really got annoyed to see me running that way for no use ..anyhow I ended up walking between those 3 builldings 6 times today XD


in the college of engineering it was really weird .. I didnt see anygirls today ... I had to ask alot for the office I Was trying to reach and both students and teachers were REALLY helpfull!

I had to stand in a small corridor to see my supervisor ... 17 guys and I was the only girl! imagine the noise and all the masculine voices ! but it was cool

now one thing I cant take is one someone calles me 9a3eedya ! I really hate that ! I dont ignor that ! yes Im a first year student but so u were one day so u better zip ur stupid mouth and mind ur own buissness if u had one from the first place .. so someone called me so while I was walking in the administration of the college and thats when I STOPED , TURNED , PUT MY HAND ON MY WAIST AND GAVE EM TAHT STARE THaT SHUT THEM UP!yup ! never mess with a chick like moi

one more thing is the stupidity of some ppl XD like .. waiting for the lift with out pushing the button? like HEL-LO?
I also hate when I have to use the stare case just coz the guys wnt give me a chance to use the lift .. its just annoying XD


so anyhow ,, the day was over ... registered for 4 subjects ( KINNNNDA ) Still have things to finish about these 4 subjects ..

tomorrow .. ROUND 3 :)

honestly its getting worse everyday XD I wonder how bad could tomorrow b :S ! I really wonder XD

Ramadhan .. Month of....?

and here comes another year .. Ramadhan is only days far from us ...

Ramadhan is the month which we all should get closer to god , ask him for his forgivness and pray to him ..

we fast from the sun rise till the sun down ..

BUT

it seems that this concept has changed now days to turn into a month of entertaining and wasting in food ..

advertisements started ! all hypermarkets are now putting their products on sales and promotions .. all FOOD !!

all kind of deserts and all kind of food people tend to have in Ramadhan ..

so now in ramadhan people cook even MORE than they usually cook everyday .. aLOT Of food thats even more than what they need maybe ..

yesterday I was in the hyper market in city centre and I was amaazed with the croud ! and amazed with what i saw in the trollies as I walked .. loads of Jelly , Castered , Rice , (Loqaymat) , and all these deserts and everyting ...



another thing is TV !!! yuppp its RaMaDhAn ! wOhO letS stArT bRoaDcAsTIng all these silly movies , and khalijy serials all day long and all night long ,, one after the other ! so instead of broadcasting programmes that are actually related to the holiness of ramdhan they just tend to waste our time by these programmes



so now people tend to sleep most of the day , wake up , eat and start watching tv and eating the whole time , maybe they'll go to the ( Jalsat) in the (5yam ) (tents)which hotels and resturants set SEPCIALLY for this so-called- HOLY month



so now tell me .. what do u think? is it really RAMADHAN which is comming in two weeks? or is it just a month of entertaining thats called so

moment of desperation

yup !! time was up !! before I get to finish registering for my classes :( !!!!
I was late coz the I had to take some signatures from some doctors and a stamp of approval from the administration of the college and they were all out for their lunch break :(

now Im starting on saturday ... I have lectures ( supposed to be) but Im still not registered for a damn thing :\ ...
LOL while sitting there i thought no one is seeing me coz the place was empty
but i never learn that the chance of someone is watching u is proportional with the stupidity of ur actions ..... aaaaaand a friend of mine saw me ! (eh !)




this is while I was waiting for them finish their lunch break and come back ... I was hungry too but all the food was finished in the shop near my college so ended up eating chocolates

the BlueTooth attack !

Bluetooth is an industrial specification for wireless personal area networks (PANs). Bluetooth provides a way to connect and exchange information between devices such as mobile phones, laptops, PCs, printers, digital cameras, and video game consoles over a secure, globally unlicensed short-range radio frequency. The Bluetooth specifications are developed and licensed by the Bluetooth Special Interest Group.

source ( wikipedia)...

right now .. Bluetooth has turned into an easy tool for those insane people to try to track down girls or to send viruses or to send porn files ( pictures-videos -etc) or even to take pictures of u while u don't know and send it to u !
its starting to get annoying when u sit in public peacefully and suddenly u start getting these request to accept bluetooth files from weird names .. I really hate it !

the other day I was sitting in a lecture in the university when I received a bluetooth request ! that was just too much ! if i was in a mall or something I may excuse him for his stupidity ! but in a LECTURE??

I really hate it how people are using all these technologies in the wrong way and for the wrong purposes..

racism in our lives ... the game is not over

I was googling for a picture that suits this subject in google and was amazed to find this picture .. I remember it VERY VERY well .. when I saw it I flashed back to when I was in Italy .. I saw it in the train station ,, Didn't understand what was it about coz the writings were in Italian but thought it was about racism and I Was right...
when ever we hear this word the first thing comes to our mind is Black and White.. Some people will think that its just an old concept that vanished from this world years back .. some people will think that its still there but perhaps not in OUR societies ..

my point of view is a little bit different and I think that there are some people around that share the same opinion with me ..

I find some people VERY racist .. I see people kept in levels due to their last names or to their Sect ( math'hab) or to their old roots ..

though we all are from the same country with the same passport now , though we all follow one religion and one god ..

but they stil get treated diffrently ..they can hardly merry from each other , and they keep on annoying them sometimes , sometimes people dont talk to them at all just because of that ..

sometimes they get labeled with some stuff just because they come from this place or this family . even if they dont know anything about that person...


dont u find that very racist ? coz I personally do !

WORLD CLOCK!

I WAS SHOCKED to watch the digits change !!!
open the link and see for ur self
this is really scary :S !!
FOR REAL?? is this whats going on in the world ? !!!!!!!!!


http://www.chippynews.com/worldclock.htm

a friend who will always support you

I can call it the greatest gift god can ever send u from heaven ..really .. having a great friend that will always support u , always be there for u , always make sure you are capable to deal with whats going on in ur life .. thats just a gift ,,, unfortunately not everyone get this gift .. but whoever does should really keep it and thank god for it.
I thank god everyday for the great people I have around me . some of them are just so caring that they'll keep talking to me on phone for hours and txt me the whole time just to make sure Im alright .. even if there was nothing serious going on , sometimes just to entertain me when Im alone and bored .
I just cant thank them enough for all they do to me ..
I may have just a few friends ,, but they really worth the world to me

(especially dedicated to my good friend superglue )

amazingly parked XD

well done dad!
that was in dubai
will share more pictures of the car parked under the wall soon XD

simple but yet amazing

its so amazing how simple stuff in life can really affect u amazingly , to me , just having a friend talking to me makes me feel awesome and really straight up my mood .. sometimes , just a smile would be more than enough .. if this friend really means it , then a smile or just a ( take it easy) or a hug speaks for a thousand words..
I remember once I was somewhere and I was really pressured by alot of things but I was keepin it hidden as usual behind a fake smile .. then suddenly something happened and I started to cry in public infront of everyone .. when I was leaving the place i was walking alone and it was obviouse that I was crying with my face all pink and my eyes full of tears and everything .. mostely ppl were just staring in a way that makes u feel worse . while I was walking I lifted up my face and I saw this guy infront of me who gave me this really nice look with a lil bit of sympathy and smiled gently , its like he was telling me to take it easy , its gonna b all fine no matter what it is .. that one thing really made me feel better and helped me carry on..
another one is this , i once was sitting in my room crying .. then suddenly my lil neice openes the door on me ,, she was 2 years at the time and speaking no arabic .. she came to me and she was like : why are you sad? ( i told her Im not) but she insisted :but you are crying!then she started trying to make me feel better and told me : its okayy dont cryy, with her lil cute voice and adorable childesh canadian accent ,, that was so cute of her she really made me smile after all

and this is how it is , as long u mean being there for others , no matter how simple what u do is , they'll feel it and maybe just coz u tried helping they'll feel better ...

my class ??

LOL so today i happened to meet up with my university class ( all the students who are accepted this year with me in my same college) . so we are 450 students ,,, 350 males and 100 girls only :S !!! I dont know why most girls wouldnt prefer studying engineering .. how ever .. It was a meeting in a lectures room so I took a look a fast glance to my right side ( as I was the last girl sitting before guys ( yea guys on side and girls on other side btw XD) and saw that guys were there are from each and every kind ( nerds , out going , quiet , loud and all) then took a LONG LONG lOOK at the girls and oh-no ! thats NOT what i wanna see ! all super serious nerds who will never talk to u :S so hard to get along with :| ! they'll all seem to be serious but I"LL SHOW THEM !Im planning to change them XD LOL .. really ,, when they see u out going and all they start opening up a lil and loosing up ! and its so hard to stay that serious for 5 years :S if they like it then sorry i dont! yup Im not planning to deal with super serious girls for the next 5 years :S !... after all I know a few cool girls ,, 2 only XD Im the third , the 4th is mmm what i call ( plus , minus) .. what i liked about my college is that most of the rooms are more like a garage or in another word , work shop.. I'll be taking a subject ( workshop 1 as a required subject ) and work shop 2 might be a required subject and may not be ( depends on my major)... I SO LOVE PRACTICAL work ! love it love it love it so I think I'll have so much fun .. :D
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new roads in your life...

today while I was walking alone in this huge place with weird paths that all look the same I started choosing the way i take randomly and see where are they gonna take me .. it was kinda fun to be honest and I eventually reached where ever I wanna go but it made me think of real life and the choices we take in real life .. how do we actually decide wheather if we should something or not? u never know what are the advantages and dissadvantages unless u do the thing in mind and see your self... the HARDEST is when u have to decide , should u follow your brain or your heart? mostely following ur brain is the right thing to do ,, but how many one us actually do that? I personally find it hard to let my mind think for me XD I just do what I love to do and what I want to do , but yea sometimes my brain DOES win and thats a good thing XD..I say we should think really hard before we walk in the paths we choose , we have to sneek at whats at the end of that path.. and decide ..after all we MUST take a decision and we do ,, every day , every minute , what to wear , what to eat , what to study , go out with ur friends or with ur family or just hang around and read a book at home? those are the simple choices we get to take and whatever it is that we choose it wont really affect us or change our lives for good as much as other choices we take .. after all this is life :) so yea , think wisely before choosing a path and try to let ur heart and brain think in the same rythme together .. coz "happiness is when what you think , what you say , and what you do are in harmony " - Mahatma Gandhi

Am I pretty enough..??

copied from os .. by joker milani
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Am I pretty enough..??
Every girl thinks they arent pretty enough and they do this. Girl: Hi. Boy: Umm... hi. Girl: I have to tell you something... Boy: What? Girl: I really like you. And I... I think I'm falling in love with you. Boy: Ok... Girl: What do you mean "ok"? Boy: I don't like you like that... Girl: Why not? Boy: I can't tell you... maybe another time... From then on, the girl kept asking the boy "Why not?" whenever she saw him, and he kept answering the same answer of "I'll tell you later." Finally the girl got fed up. Girl: I'm tired of this! Tell me why you don't like me! Boy: Do you really wanna know why? Girl: Yes! Boy: It's because you're not pretty! What's the point of going out with someone when they're not pretty?! Girl: But... I... Boy: Just shut up and leave me alone! The boy leaves and the girl is sitting there alone, crying her heart out. Then her cell phone rings. Girl: Hello? Mom: Sweetheart? I want you to go home, ok? I'll be home from work in a few hours. Girl: Alright Mom. Mom: I love you. Girl: I love you too, Mom. Mom: Bye Bye. Girl: Bye The girl heads home and once she got there, she went in the bathroom and looked at herself in the miror. Girl: I'm not pretty enough... She set to work, knowing fully well what she was going to do. 2 hours later, her Mom came home and heard the bath water running. She went upstairs to find the hallway flooded so she knocked on the door. Mom: Honey? Are you alright? She opened the door and was shocked at the site. The bath was overflowing onto the floor and the water was tinted red. She walked over to see what was inside and screamed. There, her little girl was lying with cuts all over her face and wrists. Her Mom backed away and was going to run to call the police when something caught her eye. On the miror, a piece of paper was taped up. "Am I Pretty Enough Now?"....

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My Review:
I think that every one in this world IS pretty enough , but mostely they wont recognize that they are ,, if everyone took the time to see the beauty they have and if everyone started to BELIEVE that they are ,,, this feeling WILL reflect on them in the out side and everyone will see how pretty they are .. sometimes I find people SO VERY beautiful! I love their features even if they werent that pretty to other people but I find them amazing ,, and when I think about it i realize that the main reason is that I saw their inner beauty reflects to their out side ..
so lets all take the time and look to whats inside us , believe in our selves and start making this world a more beautiful place to live in :)

your poems .. inspired by?

when we write a poem there must be something that inspired us to write it.. most people get inspired by past events that happened to them.. some people ( like me ) get inspired by movies or music or past events that happened to other people and they lived to c it ... which i find really weird .. so most people when they read what I write feel sorry for me and think that I really lived those events before and thats why I wrote these poems but the truth is that I didnt XD !!! all my poems were inspired by songs ( coz I listen to songs the whole time XD) for example .. the reflecion on the mirror ( posted here) i was inspired to write it by britney spears song ( girl in the mirror ) ..

after all ,, no matter what inspired us to write what we write , if we feel that we can do it , then we should ,, god gives his gifts and talents to us and its our job to preserve this talent , to improve it , and to share it with everyone around us :) !

ring tones???

Im just sitting over here .. and Im listening to all these weird and diffrent ringtones everynow and then ... lots of mobiles ringing , lots of messeges and lots of calls .. Im starting to wonder is it apropiate to use these tones in such educational institute? its a place to study after all? and they are just so annoying ! some weIRD stuff for gods sake!
yea ppl have diffrent tastes I know ,, but ... still .. they shouldnt use such loud and noisy stuff ESEPCIALLY NOT HERE :S !Im hating it and I've learned my lesson XD I'll try to change my ringtones to something really formal while Im here .. at least while Im a library or a lab ....
I think that each one over here have his own stuff to work on and those ringtones are so disturbing ... ppl should start to respect that .. I personally wouldnt want to get disturbed while Im studying ESEPCIALLY not by a silly ringtone ... ( sharp voice of an indian woman singing or some really really HARD GOTHIC ROCK )

I DONT BELONG HERE!!!

yea well .. yea I know its my first day over here ! but I still cant take it ! i just dont belong here ! Im hating it so much ! ( btw Im taking about my first day in my new higher education institute ) .. it just ,,, ah i dont know ~!! o hot?? so sunny? and I just vcant stand this place at all ! nor the people ! maybe i just didnt bled well and I should give it a few more days .. but so far Im so not doing well ! I keep on gettng lost and lost over and over again and walk for long time to find my self SOMEWHERE ELSE ! I dont know .. but is it too late to pull off? I just dont wanna continue studyin here ! its cool yea ...the name of it is soo cool ! but its so much more than what I can stand ! at the moment I just thank god I wasnt accepted n a scholarship out side coz its all already hard while Im with my family and i call them every 10 secs ask them where to go and what to do !!!!! ... one good thing is that I found a music room ! yea ... when I asked my sister about it she told me that its closed and no one can get access to it ... (turned into a store perphaps) she said .. I was walking and saw the sign and had this devilesh though of giving it a chance and see whats gonna happen so I followed the signs but i ended up in offices which are meant for males student to go :S !!! how ever it was the right place but seeing a girl over there was just un expected ... I talked to the one in charge and told him that I studied music and everything and he gave me the room keys and he was so glad to do that and excited ! even before I start talking or anything .. I truley wonder why :S !
anyhow i was ABOUT to break down from everything around me but thank god he opened the music room and told me that its okay to play and I can take my time there ... it was a nice warm shullter at that moment .. yea .. thats where i belong .. one big room with red carpet ... 2 up righted grand pianos and another 2 grand pianos .. guitars everywhere all over the place on the ground and on the pianos themselves .. it seems that omanis definition of music is just guitar ..... it was dusty a lil ,, all the pianos were out of tune but I felt comfortable in that place .. I stayed there for a while , played a lil then decided that its time to leave this warm place and continue .. yea ,, after all we cant stay in our comfert zone forever ... and that room happenes to b my comfort zone in this place... i'll be going there more often when ever I have a bad time over here .. I seriously dont plan to make any friends and socialize I just wanna stay alone for this five comming years and enjoy m self alone .. take care of my self and depend on my own ... yea .. I wanna getgood grades and end up graduating .. Major of achitecture engineering and a minor of interior designing ...


I really hope that I gave a good idea about my self to the music manager coz I was already in a bad mood but I tried my best .. hopefully they'll have some activities and Im planning to join the music ad art group over here .. maybe teach some basics and learn some new stuff from whos better than me ...


aHhhh I love this blog now I feel a lil bit better :) !

bored in the beach

LOL okay ! ..so yea I was in Salalah a couple of weeks ago and there we spent alot of time on the beach ,, and u know , I get bored very fast so me and my 2 sisters starting fooling around and we ended up with this [IMG]http://i155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/Image185.jpg[/IMG]we made it using tea cups XD
here is a vedio but it was taken while I was running XD
http://s155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/?action=view&current=Video007.flv

life of a grade 12 student

really.. grade 12 ? just the sound of it ,, its like a nightmare to any school student .. its ur final year .. it decides ur whole life ! it decides how u'll live , what u'll do and how will others look at you ... how much you got in grade 12 ? this question ! u'll be asked alot !!!
I was in my G 12 the last year ! and I thank god Im dont with it .. it was one of my biggest fears ..so here I am sharing my experince with u...
it was really stressfull and a (life-on-the-run) life style for almost 10 months and no matter how much you study u still feel that u didnt study enough ! I took tutors in (maths, physics, chemistry ,biology ) and a revision tutors in arabic as well .. my tutor teachers were really so good while my school teachers were just hardworkers ..even though it was hard .. I dont know HOW DID I MANAGE TO ENJOY MY SELF THEN! I really did go out every weekend (Even during the finals ) and hang out with friends and stayed in touch with them .. I managed to gain weight too which i find a very bad thing XD.. one of the best things I had this year and which kept me feeling good all the time was having GREAT friends around me all the time..
me and my best friend always managed to keep things FUN .. here are some pictures from my books:
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here is my wall before the finals:
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and this is the type of food that kept me awake XD
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mom kept on trying her best too :)
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we also managed to do our own art work at school which always kept me in trouble with my teachers
http://s155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/?action=view&current=DSC00194.jpg

at somepoint this teddy bear was my fav spot to study .. its so cozy
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I did mention that my teachers were hard workers but really ,,. not so good ! have a look at my english teacher spelling mistake !
http://s155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/?action=view&current=SA500520-1.jpg

sometimes I had these breakdowns caused by the stress !!! mostely after midnight when everyone is sleeping and Im still studying ..
http://s155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/?action=view&current=SA500539.flv

friends fun
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my books again
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and here is our biggest project ! on my pencil case :D
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u see.. its really hard! but for the student , times go so fast that u dont feel it !!!! u have ur ups and downs and start getting these weird thoughts ! u cry alot and everything XD u feel stressed coz u wanna make ppl around u happy for u !
at somepoint .. i didnt care about what I wanted to i just wanted to make my family happy

http://s73.photobucket.com/albums/i220/reemchick/?action=view&current=SA500023.jpg

but after all .,. what keeps u standing is having great ppl around u !
a great family that supports u
and great friends like the ones i had
http://s155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/?action=view&current=SA500318.jpg

if u know anyone whos going to be in grade12 be there for them ! they need it
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this pencill case is one of my fav memories ! Im keepin it :D
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the reflection in the mirror

another poem I wrote a while ago XD

I look at the mirror and all I see
the fake smile I always keep
I look at the mirror and all I see
someone Im pretending to be
this mask became a part of me
and somehow I believed that this is how I should be
buried my thoughts , buried my dreams
pleased everyone and forgot about me
the reflection on the mirror cant be the reflection of me
when she's looking back at me
I could tell her heart is broken easily
she doesnt know who to run to
she doesnt know where to hide
she doesnt know who to talk to
she always wish to die
but I see hope in her eyes
I know she can survives
he'll one day find the path
that takes her to a future so bright
she'll one day see the sun light
healing her wounded sky

I've learned my lesson

a poem I wrote a while ago...

on the sand I sat and staredat what we called our favorite place
nothing is special in it as you are not there
I try my best to stop the waves
from wipping away what we've made
but I just fail
and everything starts to fade
you promised that we wont break
and that forever we'll stay
but as days passed you changed
and you forgot how to care
you left me alone with all the pain
who thought that this is how its gonna end
who thought that you will simply break
all the promises that you've made
but I dont regret it and Im not ashamed
coz my lesson is what Ive learned
learned that trust is a dangerous game
I aint gonna take that risk again
I aint gonna give away my heart to any human being
Im gonna try to fix my shattered heart and gather my lost dreams..

a conversation between me and fate

me: can we talk
fate: NO!
me: please?
fate: you wont get any good of it
me: try me
fate: as u wish
me:please tell me?
fate: tell you what?
me: whats next? where are u taking me ?
fate: I cant tell , knowing should be a good reason for u to live
me: but it hurts not to know how things will turn after all we do, dont u think?
fate: yea I do but this is how life should go
me: what do u get from doing this?
fate: teach u lessons in life
me: but I dont wanna learn them
fate: its not an option
me: please tell me!
fate: I'll tell u one thing . u have to work hard for what u want , u have to have HOPE .. its the secret to succeed ! alot of things will try to stop u , u'll fall alot , u have to stand up and keep trying and then I might have no option but letting things go the way u want...
me: really?
fate: u have to prove for me that u r strong enough first

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dont u think that fate is the scariest thing in this world

Fur elise - me on the piano

I hope u like it ! its not that clear though ...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=-Zw6Y1MszvE

unfaithful by Rihanna * me on the piano*

http://s155.photobucket.com/albums/s316/the-pianist/?action=view&current=SA500679.flv

Lost?

how often do u find ur

self lost between 2 paths ,, each one of them has its goods and bads .. u just cant choose .. so u leave things to days ... days pass by and nothing changes .. the only thing that happens is that things get more and more complicated and choosing becomes really hard .. at these times , when u cant turn to anyone , not your best friend , not ur parents , u find ur self turning to God .. u find peace , comfert and everything u need ..

his arms are opened wide for all of us .. even people who are sinking in their mistakes ..

Suicide In Our Society

I wrote this article in my magazine (snowflake) which I had to do as a school project ..I find it a very sensitive topic to talk about but I just had to !

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It might sound weird that I choose this certain subject to talk about. We all think that only a few people in our society thought or tried to kill them selves. I think that you will change your way in thinking after you read this. For some reason I thought of creating a poll in an online site to know more about how our youth think. All of the people who voted are between 13 and 21 years old. 29 people have voted.

As you see the poll results are really shocking 20.69% have thought of suicide and they tried it too. Those 20.69% are the lucky ones who survived from this tragedy. Not to mention that the number of people who thought of suicide is very close to the number of people who didn’t. Two of the people who confessed made it clear that they cut themselves to release the anger in them and to forget the emotional pain they are going through by living a physical pain that might lead to serious diseases and infections in future. I also gave those youth the space to write the reasons why they thought or tried suicide. Most of them don’t have anyone to listen to them so they keep on hiding their feeling and problems and feel desperate and worthless.I'm against suicide. It's nothing but a shame and an end to every hope in this life and in the other life but if we took a deeper look into our society there is no one to listen to our youth and deal with their problems. Everyone admits that each and every teenager lives all these feelings and faces all these problems but no one is reaching out to them. The society is totally ignoring these issues for some reason. It’s the traditions and the misunderstanding of Islam that causing all these problems. Therefore we can't blame our youth if they thought of suicide because it's our responsibility and our job to help them and reach out to them. And we are failing this mission.

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